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Chapter VIII:
Morale
Group morale also affected the movement and the action. The responses
I
received when I asked TSAD members about morale- their morale inside
of Bendetson
and their perspective of group morale- were overwhelmingly positive.
Some people
suggested that it was our group solidarity that made our group morale
so positive, and
without this unity and community, they could not have dealt as well
with the stressful
emotions and personal demands that were part of our action.
Despite the general message of high group morale, many TSAD members
described morale as something that “fluctuated.” The references to
low points in group
morale most often corresponded to specific times and where we were
in the negotiating
process. Someone thought morale was low Tuesday night because our strategy
was
unclear and then a faculty member from the outside suggested a compromise.
This was
disheartening to some TSAD members considering all that we were sacrificing
and how
reasonable we perceived our demands to be. Other people pointed out
low points in our
constant meetings when people were just so exhausted and emotionally
drained. We
knew that our consensus decision-making was essential for the very
purpose of keeping
everyone involved and keeping morale high, but it was an exhausting
and sometimes
frustrating process. There were times in our meetings where the individuals
in the group
were “not on the same page,” and our disagreements both challenged
morale and
strengthened our solidarity. By making all sides thoroughly defend
why they felt the way
they did, the consensus process made everyone more aware of where other
people were
coming from and made compromise easier.
Even examples of low points in group morale often accompanied
references to
the positive impact of our group solidarity. When different individuals
were having
second thoughts or getting frustrated or scared or overwhelmed, looking
around at the
group and knowing that we were all in it together was a source of strength.
TSAD
members felt really positive about how caring and respectful our group
was to one
another, and that not only was this a nice thing, but it also increased
the effectiveness of
our action. One individual recalled being stressed about the action
in the context of other
concerns and stresses about stuff in her life outside of Bendetson.
She said that it was
powerful to see how many people really cared about how she was feeling
and that we
weren’t just physically in this together, but also personally and emotionally.
In her
opinion, the movement identity and morale was “intense solidarity,
but also very
personal.”
Morale was influenced by our situation and activity. One TSAD
member spoke of
our power to make noise as a tool for morale. When we made loud noise
we were doing
something arguably both peaceful and aggressive, and it was something
we did as an act
of solidarity, to disrupt the business-as-usual of the building, to
bring attention to the
building, and to have fun! Someone also specifically credited the media
for keeping our
morale up. Knowing that we had interest and support from the outside
was empowering
and also gave us the responsibility of staying strong and staying focused.
This was also
the effect of having such active outside support for the sit-in. Looking
outside and seeing
friends, allies, faculty, and staff was empowering and let each of
us know that group
solidarity extended beyond the walls of Bendetson. Doing this direct
action, we knew
that we would have both support and criticism from the campus. It was
important,
though, that when we were inside we had visible and vocal reinforcement
from the
outside-- the impact of our outside membership was critical both to
our group morale and
to the success of the action.
Our group morale was a reflection of the difficulty and strength
of our movement
and our membership. It was not always easy, in the efforts leading
up to the direct action
or inside of Bendetson. But as a movement of grassroots student action,
we got our
strength and our inspiration from each other. Individual morale created
group morale,
and this impacted our tactics and also our dedication to being a consensus
movement
where every voice was heard, respected, and had an impact. |